I told you i would update!!! Here are some songs...
Parental Supervision
The light shone at my first sight of life
The mess glaring, the voices blaring.
Confused, lost, cold, as I saw
The first vision of the world…
Growing up in that cursed house
Quiet and loathsome, hated and spit on
In disgust I lived there, feeling
Nothing at all, our fall.
All these years you’ve yelled at me, slaying all my thoughts.
Now I’m staring down the barrel of a gun, Fucking thanks a lot.
You’re the reason behind this black.
The reason under the blood.
Lost in this legal love, run away
Stiff legs and butterflies (in my eyes)
Lies say this hatred is bred from love
I say it’s a fucking cover up.
I’m on the wrong side of this blade,
The ace has pushed my luck.
Sitting in my room at night
Blood on the walls, screams from the halls
Rocking back and forth is my secret
Smiling at the picture I tore.
Tripping over my torn pant legs,
Slamming doors and turning tables,
The knife attacked my scarred back
The clubs started beating down.
All these years you’ve yelled at me, slaying all my thoughts.
Now I’m staring down the barrel of a gun, Fucking thanks a lot.
You’re the reason behind this black.
The reason under the blood.
Lost in this legal love, run away
Stiff legs and butterflies (in my eyes)
Lies say this hatred is bred from love
I say it’s a fucking cover up.
I’m on the wrong side of this blade,
The ace has pushed my luck.
[I’m not touching you…]
[dad! He’s doing it again!]
[shut up, I’m on the phone]
[ENOUGH!!! *sigh* Will you please say grace?]
My Lord, My Holy Savior,
Thanks for blessing us with this meal. Thank you for blessing our family another day to live in this house. Thanks for giving us all the gift of life. Thank you for letting me learn a valuable lesson being in this psychotic rat hole. I ask of you, God…
[what are you talking about?]
Save me from this mess. Save me from the people I have been blessed to, but took me for granted.
Protect me tonight, unlike any night, from the words, the bruises, the fists. Save me the ignominy of taking another slash at the throat, another bullet in the leg.
[that is enough, stop this instant!]
I want a new life. Take this from me and grant me anew. Selfishness is not my priority. Salvation is not my majority. So I ask in this formality, let me evade this brutality.
I take a drink, a toast to my parents’ long life and good fortune…and to take my life. Amen.
All these years you’ve yelled at me, slaying all my thoughts.
Now I’m staring down the barrel of a gun, Fucking thanks a lot.
You’re the reason behind this black.
The reason under the blood.
Lost in this legal love, run away
Stiff legs and butterflies (in my eyes)
Lies say this hatred is bred from love
I say it’s a fucking cover up.
I’m on the wrong side of this blade,
The ace has pushed my luck.
Demons are not the only ones who need to be purged.
Cursed Blessings
Deal the cards and open up your heart,
Your vision in my mind never falls apart.
And my body is not worthy.
Your beauty is equal to a goddess.
And my mind is lacking finesse
I want you so badly, I need you so badly
I won’t ever let you go.
We lay together on the ground
Staring at the stars,
We lay together on the ground
Wondering where we are.
I sleep, dreaming up a scene
Where we, live fully serene
Your love is all I need
To mend my broken heart,
I can’t resist your remedy
Addictive is your melody
With all of my sincerity
To you belongs my heart.
Set down your hand, a royal flush
I fold, covered in embalming dust.
And my soul is not worthy.
Your laughter is all that I hear
Replay in my head, I hold you dear
I wand to hold you, I want to keep you,
I won’t ever let you go.
We lay together on the ground
Staring at the stars,
We lay together on the ground
Wondering where we are.
I sleep, dreaming up a scene
Where we, live fully serene
Your love is all I need
To mend my broken heart,
I can’t resist your remedy
Addictive is your melody
With all of my sincerity
To you belongs my heart.
This curse is a blessing
This sin is a cure
My life is quickly melting
One thing is for sure,
You are my life,
And for once,
I want to be alive…
We lay together on the ground
Staring at the stars,
We lay together on the ground
Wondering where we are.
To you belongs my heart.
Inside Jokes Involve Needles and Scars
Kill it this time, it’s never over.
Drown it this time, it’s never over.
This lust inside my life has to stop.
Though I don’t want it to stop.
You are everything I know.
Lie to a whore
And tell me you don’t feel this way.
This Tumor has gotten out of hand
Cut it out, it’s never over.
These eyes never lie
But they have never said the truth.
These flames have taken over,
These scars are my proof.
I never asked for love,
It homed in for the kill
I ask you for your hand
As my heart beat is still.
Kill it this time, it’s never over.
Drown it this time, it’s never over.
This salinity leaves a horrid taste in my mouth.
This deceit is an honest statement
How could I not run?
This time I’m drowning in your shadow.
Kick my son, abusive parent.
Slice my arm with this knife
Blood clots in time, it’s never over
These eyes never lie
But they have never said the truth.
These flames have taken over,
These scars are my proof.
I never asked for love,
It homed in for the kill
I ask you for your hand
As my heart beat is still.
Fall out of this homicidal trance.
I never could dance,
What an evil chance,
Needles will never hurt me.
Roses Mean Nothing for the Dead
Darkness falls, and lights fade,
We hold hands in the night’s shade.
Run away, fly with fear.
Our death is slowly creeping near…
These bats will fly on angel’s wings.
An omen predicts malignant things.
Monsters sing, and people hide.
A tragedy we must chide.
In our coffin we shall sleep.
Desolate and incomplete.
Our hearts are bound together in this twine.
Our mouths are drowned in this wine.
Our hands are nailed to the wall.
We watch as stars helplessly fall.
People weep, and children cry as they realize
roses mean nothing for the dead.
Butterflies glide in silence
We walk the world in search of guidance.
Guidance from the fates.
Leading us to the golden gates…
In our coffin we shall sleep.
Desolate and incomplete.
Our hearts are bound together in this twine.
Our mouths are drowned in this wine.
Our hands are nailed to the wall.
We watch as stars helplessly fall.
People weep, and children cry as they realize
roses mean nothing for the dead.
(roses, roses) [ROSES]
(roses, roses) [ROSES]
(roses, roses) [ROSES]
(roses, roses) [ROSES]
(roses, roses) [ROSES] my heart is beating shy
(roses, roses) [ROSES] your eyes are ready to fly
(roses, roses) [ROSES] your love, an honest lie
(roses, roses) [ROSES] are you ready to die?
roses, roses) [ROSES] my heart is beating shy
(roses, roses) [ROSES] your eyes are ready to fly
(roses, roses) [ROSES] your love, an honest lie
(roses, roses) [ROSES] are you ready to die?
Roses mean nothing for the dead
Smothered Angels
My mind won’t let me fight.
I want to be ridden of sight.
Although I keep trying
All I manage is to keep on crying.
Stick this dagger through my heart,
Pierce me again and again
Until you find the truth
The rapture will begin.
Fallen angels sink wearing lace
As you go up to take their place.
I get lost in this fearful craze.
I spread my wings and fly away
I didn’t stay another day,
Smothered in love is my way.
Guitars and suicide notes
Nuns and sacrificed goats.
I’m not one to gloat
Hiding under this trench coat.
Living that way equals bad health
Worshiping one’s glory is not right,
You are not one, you are all.
So it is alright, for me at least.
Fallen angels sink wearing lace
As you go up to take their place.
I get lost in this fearful craze.
I spread my wings and fly away
I didn’t stay another day,
Smothered in love is my way.
The huntress strikes her prey.
Bought my heart for free says me.
If only I could do the same.
Let’s live together in this dream.
For me, make it seem,
That there is someone perfect for me.
Untitled Romance
Once Upon a Time…
Two children side by side,
Walking through the cyanide
Smiling as the sun dropped down…
This girl was choking on her words
This boy was failing to support
Everything and nothing at the same time.
Bodies piled high, covering the black and white,
Of the empty morning sky, leaving nothing but the light.
Crows were diving from the heavens
Sparing the world false blessings
They started to shoot the birds down.
This city was burning to the ground,
This life is something never found,
Everything is just in your mind.
Hours started passing by, hope had stopped shy,
I’ve never seen heroes cry, children waving good-bye.
Holocaust feeling trapped inside a cage
Bullets bursting through us with rage
Sirens blaring through the storm,
Bombs falling, flaring forwards.
Looking up at the sky asking.
“Are we dying in the worst way?”
Running toward the train,
In the never ending rain,
Tripping over all the fallen bricks,
As the terrors beat you with sticks,
Stabbing quickly in the back
What a cowardly act,
Just for you, oh for you,
Do they really love you?
Holocaust feeling trapped inside a cage
Bullets bursting through us with rage
Sirens blaring through the storm,
Bombs falling, flaring forwards.
Looking up at the sky asking.
“Are we dying in the worst way?”
Silent Screams filled the air as we danced the night away.
Amplified whispers started to ensnare the meaning of love…
This sinful raven had died for a dove.
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